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Iâ??ve put it off and put it off. When I first got up, I
couldnâ??t wrap my head around anything. I read paragraphs four, five, and six
times and still didnâ??t grasp what they were saying. I stared at the things
Master said not really understanding that they required a response. My head
felt emptyâ?¦ like when I was on the wrong medicine before I gave up letting
doctors play with the chemicals I put into my body to make me â??normalâ?. I
couldnâ??t think and all I could think to do was lay down and go to sleep.
Instead, I got dressed, brushed my hair and got ready to go
to lunch with Master. Then I got dropped off at my new job. I was supposed to
look at my training booklets and sign the last of my paper work so Iâ??d be ready
to start on Monday. But there was a community council meeting and everyone was
busy. I stood there for about an hour waiting for the director and
administrator to get out of the meeting and ended up leaving to change my shoes
and go back. When I got back, I went over the employee handbook and then R (the
director) took me to work. My new boss took me to my current job. So weird. I
was made to clock in early and get to work. An extra hour this week.
I still have no topic. I donâ??t know whatâ??s draining my
energy. I literally feel like I donâ??t sleep. Maybe itâ??s because I wake up so
much at night. Maybe Iâ??m wearing myself too thin. Maybe I am a lot worse off
than I realized with regards to being out of shape. Iâ??m what they call â??bone
wearyâ? and â??mentally exhaustedâ? and I have no idea whatâ??s causing it.
I was going to pull a topic from the past that I didnâ??t
really like what I said or how I said it based on where Masterâ??s training of me
lies now. However, itâ??s time to go watch TV with Master, our usual evening â??settling
downâ? ritual. Maybe Iâ??ll do that tomorrow if Iâ??m not working with T.