Some Words of Wisdom from Nancy Botwin
I’ll walk down that tunnel every time, and when I get to the end, I’ll figure it out. But at least I’ll know. I’ll know! Why would you not wanna know?
~Nancy Botwin, Weeds
I Don’t Know!
“Life’s not fair, is it? You see, I… well, I shall never be king. And you? You shall never see the light of another day! Adieu.”
“Didn’t your mother ever tell you not to play with your food?”
~Scar and Zazu, The Lion King
Yeah, I’ve been quoting movies lately. Not good quotes, either. Just ones I thought were cute.
“Mama always says life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.”
“Lieutenant Dan! Ice cream!”
~Forrest Gump, Forrest Gump
“That is fucked up, Daisy!”
~Lisa Rowe, Girl Interrupted
I got nothing. Really. Move along, now.
Unless you want to hear me babble about not feeling like a slave.
Me leaving did a lot more damage than I ever thought imaginable. There’s a lot of fear involved in finding our way again. On both our parts.
I’m terrified of letting myself become immersed in slavery again. I’m afraid we’ll go the same route, end up in the same rut, and then what do we do?
I won’t ever just leave like that again. It was wrong. Whether I’m a slave or not, it was wrong. I should have talked to Master and told Him how I was feeling. That I was suffocating. That things were traveling down dangerous paths and I was petrified. That things just plain weren’t going the way I expected and I didn’t like the way they were.
And He’s scared of pushing too hard. And me walking out the door again. And who can blame Him, really? I’ve already proven I’m capable. I’ve shown that I’d do it. And that’s just bullshit. Especially since our relationship was built on (among other things) the facts that a) neither of us believe that’s my place as a slave and b) we both never wanted to have that done to us again or do that to each other. Read more…
Gandhi
I don’t know much about the guy. I know he was all about peace… I think. In some things I’m well read. In others… not so much. I plan to change that. In any case…
“You have to be the change you want to see in the world.”
“To give pleasure to a single heart by a single act is better than a thousand heads bowing in prayer.” ~Gandhi
The first is relevant to my politics. The second my take on service.
Literally Figurative
Iâ??ve started reading the Gor novels again. The intent was to
begin to reiterate to myself a few things that I learned a long time ago but I
seem to be unable to master. Suddenly, these books have nowhere near the effect
on me that they used to. And I canâ??t decide whether itâ??s because of the watered
down form of Gorean culture Iâ??ve experienced online or not.
Read more…
Just IRC? Maybe not.
I donâ??t have much to say today and thought of just leaving
you a link. I found a really cute clip on youtube.com and wanted to put it up
here. But Iâ??m not sure Master would appreciate me making that my blog entry for
the day.