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So we were walking home from City Hall…

May 26th, 2011 3 comments

M had family court today. His kid (We’ll call him K3) had some bad shit happen to him, got mixed up with the wrong crowd, got into some trouble and was sent to treatment for troubled teens. Time’s almost up, and K3 originally filed for emancipation, but today was to schedule his release into his mother’s care at the end of the school year. … Barely three months before his 18th birthday.

I’m not convinced this is the best move but time will tell. The kid seems to have somehow found a good head to wear on his shoulders over the past year or so. Course, I’ve known quite a few “bad boys” in my day, and so I’m skeptical. But I want to believe. So we’ve made plans to make plans. Which right now, because of the state of our personal life (long story – nothing to do with our relationship) is the best we can do.

K3 drove us home from court. Don’t even get me started on how old that makes me feel. And he informed us that he might be a father but he’s not really sure whether or not he wants to step in. Apparently, the girl was raising the baby as some other kid’s and the kid died. K3 read his obituary, which said something like “devoted father”, and K3 is worried that if he gets involved he’ll somehow take away from that. I had no idea what to say to him. Read more…

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Happy Thanksgiving from M and Me

November 25th, 2010 Comments off

There’s something special about having a cat that I can’t quite put my finger on.  When I stretch out on the floor and snuggle with Cara, petting her, and teasing her with her “fishing pole” (read: a broken nylon measuring tape), I feel all warm and squishy in a way that human interaction can’t replicate.  I mean, here’s this fuzzy little creature who can only communicate with body language, and tone, and depends on me entirely for food, water, shelter and love.  So trusting, and content to take whatever I’ll give her.

The “new shiny” affect hasn’t quite warn off, yet, and we both still stop what we’re doing, quite frequently, throughout the day, to love on Cara, and spend time with her.  And ya know, I’m not sure that affect ever will wear off completely.  We’re both hopelessly devoted to those brilliant golden green eyes, and her desperate hunger for love and attention.  And as I think about my dynamic with our feline friend, I can’t help but consider how similar it is to my dynamic with M.

Just like Cara, I get pissy if M doesn’t play with me enough.  And just like Cara, I make a huge deal out of ignoring Him back, and entertaining myself.  Even though I have the ability to communicate openly, I often do most of my communicating with body language and tone.  While I do most of the cooking, I depend on Him entirely for food, water, shelter and love.  I trust Him completely, and am content to take whatever He’ll give me.  And he’s hopelessly devoted to my brilliant blue-gray eyes, and my desperate hunger for love and attention.

As I think about this, I’m laughing at myself for my aversion to the word “pet”, and the connotations it has.  And I realize I’m just dumb, because I am, without a doubt, M’s pet, among all the rest, and I love that it is that way.

There’s something to be said for stretching out on the couch, or at His feet, and feeling Him reach down to pet my head, or play with my hair.  Sitting next to Him on a leash.  Licking His hands or face to show my affection.

I’m such a lucky girl.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone, from both of us.  Hope yours is as amazing as I’m sure ours is going to be.

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