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#SunnySunday Happy New Year! #JanuaryGoals

January 1st, 2017

I can’t say that I’m sad to see 2016 go. So many of my childhood heroes have passed. We elected a narcissistic racist rapist to be our Commander In Chief. The people of our country are showing their true colors every single day on the internet. This was a real headline: “Hillary Clinton Sends Thank-You Letter to ‘Slut’ Who Is Proud of Her Sexually Transmitted Disease.”

2016 can fuck right the fuck off, thanks.

Last year, I said I wasn’t going to post site goals or New Year’s Resolutions. And I’m still not. At least, not in the way that I usually do. I’m not sure where I’m going with the site, this year. I’m not sure what I want to get out of 2017, yet. All I know for sure is what I want to stop doing.

I want to stop making promises to myself and not keeping them.

I want to stop allowing my mental illness to paralyze me.

I want to start setting and achieving goals.

So I have four goals for January.

1. Get Kinktionary and No Stupid (Kink) Questions scheduled through February.
2. Start doing #SunnySunday again.
3. Start working on a plan for making this site worthy of Patreon subscribers.
4. Work my way back to 30 minutes a day on the elliptical.

One and three are pretty self-explanatory.

Two is more personal than it seems. I don’t know who or what started #SunnySunday, and I don’t know why. What I do know is that on this site, it has been a record of things that have made me happy. It wasn’t always (it started as Upworthy Sunday), and if you delve into the archives, some of the stuff might be a little bleak. But that’s what it has become.

I feel like if I force myself to pick at least one good thing about the week, it will help me to not fall so far down the rabbit hole of despair caused by the bad shit going on in our society. I plan to make it a little more personal than it has been in the past, so it might be a short post about something that happened that made me smile, or a picture of one of the cats doing something funny, or…whatever. It might not happen every week, and that’s okay. But I’m going to try.

Today’s #SunnySunday is this attempt to become more goal oriented. This buckling down and refusing to allow my mental health to control me.

I’m not kidding myself. I know there will be set backs. That’s the fun part of mental illness. When you’re up, you make all these plans, and get all excited about being up…and then you’re down again, and you feel like a giant ball of worthless failure.

Right now, I’m up. And while I’m up, I’m gonna work on ways to keep the down from setting me back too far.

Four is because I can’t deal with the pain I’m in any longer, and I need to make damn sure it’s not because I spend too much time at a computer before I go to the doctor or go mattress hunting. I’ve already begun. I’m at fifteen minutes currently. So far, it’s helped my hips a bit, but hasn’t done much for my back and shoulders. But it’s only been six days, and I skipped two because New Year’s. Unless something crazy happens, I’m going to give it at least a month.

And those are my goals for January. At the end of the month, I’ll report back on how I’m doing, and make new goals for February.

Happy New Year, everyone! Here’s hoping 2017 rocks. 💜

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