Archive for January, 2011

30DoK: Define Your Kinky Self by SeaofNeptune

January 31st, 2011 Comments off

Rayne’s been bugging everyone for a guest post defining their kinky selves for the writing project Thirty Days of Kink. Next up, Neptune from Sea of Neptune.

From Neptune’s bio: I’m a beginner toy reviewer/blogger and a current college student. I live with a super awesome boyfriend and I am currently just trying to enjoy life.

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Hi, my name is Neptune and I love all things kinky. I’m still a novice and I have been exploring this side of my sexuality for a bit of time now. My partner and I are still exploring and experimenting with each other, so right now we switch between the dominant and submissive roles. I am sure that he and I will continue to do so until we settle in our preferred role. For some reason, I tend to feel awkward being the Dom, but it always depends on my mood. When I think about being the Dom and planning things, I always shrink and become shy – but when it’s more in the heat of the moment, I have no issue. I don’t know why that is, I guess I just feel like the spotlight is shining on me and I freeze. Part of the reason I feel that being submissive is easier for me is because I am naturally dominant in regular life. I have a dominant personality; I am strong and willing to take control of everyday situations without an issue. So, I guess that I enjoy giving that up and having someone else take control. To make my decisions for me and tell me what needs to be done. The same may go for my partner as well, he is naturally laid back and willing to go with the flow. So I am sure he enjoys getting the chance to be fully in control for once. Read more…

I was gonna write… Here’s what happened.

January 27th, 2011 Comments off

I’d intended to write here yesterday. I even have a bunch of topics jotted down. No, really! Here’s what happened:

For some reason, Master decided to look at my Eden Fantasys profile. Which, I mean, whatever. It’s not like I ever hide anything from Him, and I sure as hell wasn’t hiding anything from Him on my Eden Fantasys profile. But I changed it recently to make it more professional, since I’m writing for Sex Is now, and in doing so, removed all evidence of being owned. Unless you go into my reviews or forum threads, that is.

It wasn’t intentional. I wasn’t trolling for cock or pussy. I was just worried that “owned slave” in the most visible part of my profile would cause problems with upper management. No one’s ever suggested as much, I just didn’t want to take the chance. Read more…

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This Morning

January 23rd, 2011 4 comments

This morning, I tried to sleep through Master playing with my boobs. Seriously.

I almost never sleep in. I wake up some time between 4 and 6am, without fail, and can’t go back to sleep. Not too long ago, this meant that by the time Master was ready to get out of bed, I was either in a straight panic from all the self-deprecating thoughts I’d been turning over and over in my mind, or I was in an all out rage because… How dare He decide to sleep in when I can’t?

Yeah… I know.

This was exacerbated by the fact that when I turned our bedroom into the dark cave that it is now, there was suddenly nothing I was allowed to do to quell my racing mind. It was too dark to read a book, so I gave reading on the PDA a shot. The PDA, on any setting, was too bright, and even when I read with it under the covers, it woke Master up. Read more…

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There’s always a way.

January 23rd, 2011 2 comments

I spent some time reading some old posts tonight. I don’t know why I do these things to myself. They always leave me longing for the person I used to be.

I’m not really sure what that means. I think that’s what bothers me the most.

I can say, without a doubt, that I am different today than I was two years ago. Last year. Last month. I’m more sure of myself, my life, my lifestyle, my relationship. I’ve let my owner in in a way that I’ve never let anyone in before. I’m less mouthy (if you can believe it), and more obedient. I love and respect Master in a way that I never did before. And yet… I still feel like something’s missing.

In me. In my behavior. Not in Him, or our relationship, or our life. Despite the hard knocks we’ve dealt with separately and together, we have more than any human being has a right to. And I can honestly say I’ve never been happier. Read more…

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Sex furniture? What sex furniture? It’s a giant cat bed!

January 22nd, 2011 12 comments

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What We’re Up To

January 19th, 2011 Comments off

So what’ve we been up to?

M’s been taking me out to lunch at the local diner, and buying dinner out so I can get my new schedule figured out. And thanks to the new job, we can afford to splurge a little, so that’s working out all right.

I’m getting back into blow jobs!

Oh, right. I didn’t talk about that. Read more…

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