I was reading a thread about pet names and it got me thinking about names and terms of endearment. I have three main names and they all mean different things.

I have my birth name. Not many people know it, very few use it. It’s mostly reserved for family, work and for one very close friend. Even though he’s part of my kinky friends circle, he’s known me since school so he knows me by that name.

I then have kitti. Kitti has become who I am. I’ve been called it since I was 16. It’s also my “scene name” but just because that’s how I tend to introduce myself. It’s pretty much my name, now.

I then have… well… I then have whatever name DK decides to use. At the moment it’s cunt or bitch. Cunt is basically just his name for me. It implies the very low status I have in comparison to him. It implies that I am, in fact, not a person. It also reminds me that while other people get cute names like “slave”, “pet” or even names like “slut” and “whore”… I just get cunt. Pet is affectionate, slave implies importance, slut and whore are pretty much acceptable. There are still an awful lot of people who revolt at the name cunt. It’s not a publicly used word for genitalia because people find it so offensive. It’s even more distasteful to be used to insult someone… To be used all day every day as name? To most, unacceptable. To him? It just signifies how low on the totem pole I am.

The other word, bitch, is used less often but definitely means something else. It’s usually used aggressively. When I start to get close to crying, he’ll call me a snivelling bitch. When he was calling me names, it was mostly bitch. It’s quite common to hear but it still has an impact. The only time he tends to use it is during “play” but it holds such an impact because he puts venom behind it. As I said, he uses it aggressively and he tends to use it to demonstrate distance and to make me scared of him. It works