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Behaving and Babbling and New Toys

January 12th, 2010 10 comments

This whole behaving myself thing is kinda neat.  There’s little to no shouting or hurt feelings.  No tense undertone to dinner.  No added stress on Master’s already stressed day.  If/when He stops working for the night, we can just… breathe.

The only things we do fight about have to do with His job.  How much He works.  How much He covers for everyone else even though almost no one seems interested in returning the favor.  How often He’s home all day, sitting not ten yards away from me, and I can’t even so much as tell Him I love Him because it might be overheard by a customer.

I’ve never understood that.  When I was a kid, I thought it was just my father being a douche.  As I got older, I realized it’s this “professionalism” thing.  It’s considered unprofessional, in some work environments, to show affection.  And it makes absolutely no sense to me.  I like to know a person loves their family.  It makes them more human.  As ridiculously annoying as they can be, I still prefer dealing with humans to dealing with machines.

Master just made me request a hood for review.  I kind of hate Him a little bit, right now.  He very plainly told me He doesn’t care and is sure He’ll enjoy my devastation.



I’ll console myself with the fact that my very first LELO toy is on its way to me right now.  None other than the overhyped Ella.  We’ll see if she stands up to the test.  As well as my first Hitachi.  And some attachment or other that I can’t remember and bought just to get as close to $100 as possible.  And Mint Tree Bathing Gel from Kama Sutra that I’m gonna use as a shower gel cause I’m a rebel like that.  And because I don’t have a bath tub.

That’s one of the requirements when we finally do move.  The next house has to have a full-size tub.  Our last apartment had a tub, but it was a mini one and it sucked.  I’m talking claw foot or something.  It’s high time I get back into my bubble bath routine.  I mean, He gets massages, like, all the time.  I should get a bubble bath occasionally. ~nods emphatically~  Please? ~puppy dog eyes~  Read more…

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That’s not my name…

January 12th, 2010 2 comments

I was reading a thread about pet names and it got me thinking about names and terms of endearment. I have three main names and they all mean different things.

I have my birth name. Not many people know it, very few use it. It’s mostly reserved for family, work and for one very close friend. Even though he’s part of my kinky friends circle, he’s known me since school so he knows me by that name.

I then have kitti. Kitti has become who I am. I’ve been called it since I was 16. It’s also my “scene name” but just because that’s how I tend to introduce myself. It’s pretty much my name, now.

I then have… well… I then have whatever name DK decides to use. At the moment it’s cunt or bitch. Cunt is basically just his name for me. It implies the very low status I have in comparison to him. It implies that I am, in fact, not a person. It also reminds me that while other people get cute names like “slave”, “pet” or even names like “slut” and “whore”… I just get cunt. Pet is affectionate, slave implies importance, slut and whore are pretty much acceptable. There are still an awful lot of people who revolt at the name cunt. It’s not a publicly used word for genitalia because people find it so offensive. It’s even more distasteful to be used to insult someone… To be used all day every day as name? To most, unacceptable. To him? It just signifies how low on the totem pole I am.

The other word, bitch, is used less often but definitely means something else. It’s usually used aggressively. When I start to get close to crying, he’ll call me a snivelling bitch. When he was calling me names, it was mostly bitch. It’s quite common to hear but it still has an impact. The only time he tends to use it is during “play” but it holds such an impact because he puts venom behind it. As I said, he uses it aggressively and he tends to use it to demonstrate distance and to make me scared of him. It works

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January 12th, 2010 Comments off

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