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What a Week!

December 18th, 2009

You know, despite the fact that I had a rather shitty day on Tuesday, my week has been phenomenal.

I’m starting to feel like me again.  My medication is definitely working and doing what it needs to do for me.  Since I’ve begun it, I’ve lost about 18 pounds and I’ve still got more to go.  The majority of my weight is fluid that has been retained due to my PCOS that I’m finally being treated properly for.

Mom and I went shopping Wednesday and she encouraged me to try some clothes on.  Now, if you know me, you know that due to my weight gain and fluctuating swelling in my tummy, I’ve hated shopping.  I hate trying things on just to be disappointed.  I caved.  “She’s my mom,” I thought.  “It’ll make her happy.”  So, we proceeded to pick the racks at Burlington and went into the dressing room.


I was stunned.  Nearly everything fit me perfectly.  I almost cried with happiness.  That has NEVER happened to me before.  I’ve been convinced that I couldn’t shop anywhere but Lane Bryant.  I was proven wrong.  Lane Bryant’s clothes never made me feel good about myself.  They always made me feel fatter.  These clothes?  Totally different story.  My mom was so happy.  It brought a smile to my face to see her so happy for me.  It’s been a while since we’ve been able to share a moment together.  Let me break here and give you a bit of background as to why this was so important to me. 

My mom and I have had serious issues during the past year that I’ve been home.  She can be quite difficult to deal with at times, but most of the tension is my fault.  Granted, she gets mad at me for no reason sometimes, but most of the time it’s justified and I have failed to see it.  She and I have never spent quality time together since I’ve been home and that day at the store was enough of a Christmas present for me.  To actually be with her, without my brother or dad around, was pure bliss.  I really do love her, despite our differences.  We’re so much alike that we clash.  We’re destined to be at each other’s throats the rest of our lives.

And the fact that she smiled and said she was proud of me was enough to bring me to tears.  The fact that I was smiling and back to my old self (really, if you don’t know me personally you wouldn’t know the difference) was the best Christmas gift I could have given her.  She bought me an entire new wardrobe, for the most part, on Wednesday.  Eleven new tops, two jackets, a pair of pants, and a rather chic scarf all added up to about $150.  I was stunned.  The same amount I had spent at the other store on five things bought me a new wardrobe.  I was thrilled.  So was she.

It was the absolute perfect day.

And rayne, I have to apologize to you for writing about this next part because I know how badly you wanted to see TSO this year.  I thought about you and M when I went!

Yesterday was even better.  My mom, best friend, and I went to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra.  I had waited exactly two months anxious to see them.  This was my first experience as well as my mom’s.  I’m so glad Tab decided to end things when he did.  I really enjoyed bringing my mom.  It stormed last night, hard.  Streets started flooding and the weather was just awful.  We took it all in stride.  The three of us went to dinner, chatted, laughed, made our way through traffic to the concert, and finally sat down and took a deep breath.  This was it.  This was the moment I had been waiting for for two months.

My God.  It was epic.

I was mesmerized.  It is a completely different concert experience and, if you ever have the chance to see them perform, go.  The tickets for the concert were the best investment for Christmas.  My best friend had seen them last year, but she was still excited to be there with us.  My mom, to my surprise, loved it.  I was happy.  She hugged me and was actually happy that Tab had decided to end our relationship before the concert.  She’s selfish at times.  I love it.

So, the week can only get better, right?  You bet your ass it can.  Despite the fact that I have a crummy doctor’s appointment this morning, I’m spending more time with the family tonight and then I’m Baton Rouge bound in the morning to spend the rest of the weekend with Will.

I am such a lucky and happy girl.

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  1. December 18th, 2009 at 15:11 | #1

    Sounds like it’s been awesome. I’m glad you have a better time with clothing. I am about the same way, but mine has to do with bras. No bras *ever* fit right and they just make me feel silly wearing most of them.

    Never seen TSO. Might have to at some point.

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