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Do as I say, not as I do.

October 21st, 2009 3 comments

Over on my post about masters and manners, LunaKM said:

It’s interesting though as I don’t know if I’d be comfortable in a relationship where I was required to be polite but the Master wasn’t. See, Master has trained me to be polite all the time; I wasn’t raised that way. So if he wasn’t polite I’d feel… odd I think. Hmm.

And I thought about how there are a lot of things Master doesn’t do that He requires of me.

Like, He almost never does the dishes.  I can count on one hand the number of times, in seven years, that He’s taken out the garbage.  He rarely feeds the birds.  He never cleans their cages.  And He rarely says please, thank you or I’m sorry.

I’m required to be respectful in my responses to Him and all males even though He’s only respectful to those He feels deserve His respect.  I’m not supposed to involve myself in drama – even His – unless He brings me into it.  I’m not allowed to go places without Him.  I have to get permission if I find myself interested in a sexual encounter with someone.  And I can’t buy anything without running it by Him first.

Sometimes He only eats one meal a day.  Sometimes He doesn’t eat anything.  But I’m required to eat twice a day.

He takes naps but I’m not allowed unless He is.  He does whatever He wants during the day, but I have to have permission to do anything besides what He’s told me to do.  And He changes jobs, takes on call and goes in early or stays late without running it by me first even though I’m required, when I’m working outside of the home, to ask Him before doing these things.

Like Kaya, I am held to a much higher standard than He holds Himself to.  I’m not sure He sees it that way.  I’ve never really sat down and talked with Him about it.  What I do know is that He’s not bothered by it in the slightest.

But it’s not fair! I have to say please and thank you! I have to apologize and beg for His forgiveness when I fuck up.  I have to be respectful to people who make me sick to my stomach, and act like little miss perfect in public, and pretend that I don’t think I’m better than this, that or the other male who is obviously an ignorant douche bag.  So why doesn’t He??!?

Cause He’s the master, that’s why.  He gets to choose how He behaves.  He gets to decide who He’s nice to.

And I get to do what He tells me to.

“Do as I say, not as I do, cunt.”  should be added to my list of rules, I think.  Cause it’s absolutely one of His favorite things to say to me.

P.S.  Just to be clear, I’m not saying Master doesn’t hold Himself to a high standard.  I’m not saying He’s rude to people (He almost never is.  Even if He doesn’t like them.), or irresponsible, or anything like that.  I’m simply saying He doesn’t have to be polite or responsible if He chooses not to.

P.P.S.  After posting this, Master read it and we discussed it.  He says He doesn’t hold me to a higher standard than He holds Himself.  He just holds me to a different one.  And He feels it should be that way, being that I’m a slave.  I agree.

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