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SJP#16: Reward for Service?

June 11th, 2009 2 comments

excellentserviceaward“Do not be like servants who serve their masters expecting to receive a reward; be rather like servants who serve their master unconditionally, with no thought of reward.” – Antigonus of Sokho

Sometimes I feel like one of those prima donna actresses standing there with her hands on her hips and popping her gum going, “What’s my motivation?”  As if I don’t know the role and need some sort of reason to submit the way that works best for us.

Master gets busy or tired or sick or just plain sick of any sort of work (I won’t pretend owning me isn’t a full-time job/hassle.  I know it is.), the M/s part of our relationship will fall by the wayside and I’ll stand there all but saying, “Why should I submit?  What am I getting out of it?”

I won’t lie.  I absolutely expect to get something out of being a slave.  I expect to get a lot of things out of being a slave.  Some of them are relationship-specific.  Others I’d expect from any master who might own me in the event that Master should pass on or decide to give me away or sell me.

I expect to be controlled, appreciated, fulfilled.  I expect to be loved, wanted, protected.  I expect to be taught, molded, trained.

I think, once upon a time, I said I had no expectations.  I’m betting I was parroting something I was told in an IRC channel.  Back when I was trying to be everyone else’s definition of a true slave.  Back when I had my head up my ass. Read more…

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