Archive for May, 2009

Emotional Blackmail

May 30th, 2009 Comments off

We’ve all done it. We get into a fight with our significant other (be it in a vanilla relationship or not) and when things get heated the emotional blackmail comes into play. What started as a small disagreement suddenly turns into a relationship killer because one of the parties uses things such as “Then I’ll just leave and you won’t have to deal with me anymore!” or “I don’t want to be with you anymore, happy now?”.

The sad thing is that most times when these types of things are said it’s not something the one who said it is even considering. It’s just a heat of the moment type of utterance that can be one of the most long term damaging things someone in a relationship can do. More after the jump.

I used to go through this with rayne, even after she became my slave. We were both guilty of it. We would start arguing about something tiny (work, hers and mine, was a common topic). Before we knew it either she was saying she didn’t want to be a slave anymore, or I was standing at the door threatening to leave. In our relationship, this kind of reaction on both of our parts had lasting consequences that have not been easy to repair.

I’m guilty, being the Master, for allowing arguments to continue to that level, and that was something I had to accept and deal with internally. Unfortunately, being in control of another human being doesn’t mean that you have the right to just switch it off when things get tough. In fact, those are the times dominants need to be even more consistent and not allow the heat of the moment to damage an otherwise good relationship. Read more…

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May 29th, 2009 1 comment

PinsOff.jpgI just wanted to thank those of you coming to Insatiable Desire for pussy whipping, for serious.  Master has seen how many of you are and has decided to a) do more pussy whipping and b) take more pictures.  Now I just gotta get new razors and some Medicated Gold Bond powder and we’ll be all set.

He got paid today.  We’re going to pick up His check in a few minutes and then we’re going shopping.  Today’s pretty much shot till evening, but I’m excited to be going out.

Tomorrow night we’re going on a date with our neighbor.  It’s not really a date, but we’re going to the drive-in so it feels like one.  But I’ve never been to a drive-in so I’m kindof excited.  Even though M’s gonna make me sit in the front seat with the neighbor.  Lol.

Anywho… we’re off!  Have a great day!

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Update: Week in May

May 28th, 2009 3 comments


This week was supposed to be a week of retraining and micromanagement. Lots of punishment and conversation and bondage and brainwashing.

And I dreaded it. Right up to the very moment Master came home Friday evening.

I was petrified of how hard on me He’d be and how emotional it was going to be and what things would be like when we came out the other side.  And then He came home Friday night and took me to the convenience store to grab a couple 20oz Smirnoffs (though I ended up buying Parrot Bay Mojito instead… good stuff!).  We sat on the couch all comfy cozy and drank our bottles and watched South Park.

Yes.  South Park.  It’s funny.  Shut up.

I didn’t even cook that night.  He did.  He made beef and vegetable curry.  Well, okay I made the rice. Minute rice. Which requires boiling water, pouring in rice and letting it sit for five minutes.  So… I didn’t even cook that night.

That’s when the nagging thought of “Just one more thing He said He’s going to do that’s going to be pushed to the wayside.” started eating at the back of my mind. Read more…

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The start of a lasting relationship?

May 27th, 2009 3 comments

After looking at their toys, I sure as hell hope so.

I signed up to do reviews over at Eden Fantasys.  Then I noticed their nifty widget creator and threw a bunch of purple toys from my wish list in.  I have ninety items on my wish list already.  My pussy’s getting all twitchy just thinking about it!

Sensitizing clitoral gelWaterproof butterfly with remote controlSilicone-covered vaginal balls for pleasure and muscle trainingPowerful wireless stimulator with soft noduled sleeve.Vibrating nipple clamps that double as clitoral arousersSmall hands-free rechargeable vibrator made of silicone

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Shutting Me Up

May 26th, 2009 6 comments


Master’s hella stronger than me.  Hella stronger.

We were getting into crazy fights every Monday.  And I wasn’t telling Him what was bothering me and when I’d finally tell Him, He was pissed.  Or I was wicked disrespectful. Or something.

This one day we were fighting over god knows what.  I wouldn’t shut up.  He punched me in the back.

A few moments later, I was screaming again and He pinned me by the throat to the wall.

Not long after that, I started again.  I sat on the bed basically calling Him a liar and telling Him where to stick it. Read more…

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Morning Breaks

May 23rd, 2009 2 comments

So Vanimp and Amber wanted positive stuff. Let’s see…

I’m awesome at getting myself in trouble! Digging myself deeper. Giving Him more ammo for His arsenal. Does that count? No? Bummer.

Act 1, Scene 1

The stage is split. On one half is Applebees where Melen sits eating lunch and talking to coworkers. On the other half, Rayne is running back and forth between the kitchen and the computer splitting her time between dishes and talking to her owner.

Rayne: So where’d you go to lunch?

Melen: Applebees, but, before you bitch, I’m not paying for it.

Rayne’s jaw tightens and she sits down.

Rayne: Must be nice to always get to eat at nice places.

Fade to black. Skip ahead to: Read more…

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