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A Week in May

April 11th, 2009 Comments off

Yesterday Master told me He was thinking about taking a week off in May. He plans to micromanage my week. Have a week long “Come to Jesus” meeting. I don’t know why I didn’t mention it in the last post.

I almost begged Him to. Instead, for some reason, after being punished I simply said, “I think the week in May is a good idea.”

He asked why and I said, “For all the reasons you want to do it.”

It’s been a long time. I’m a little scared.

We’ll see what happens I guess. Maybe I’ll suddenly become “Super Slave” and He’ll decide I don’t need it. It could happen!

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Master’s psychic!

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So I’ve got welts on my ass and they’re not the fun kind. But I needed it. It’s been ages. My behavior was starting to show how long it had been.

I could have asked for another week when I realized my period was going to start. He probably would have said no, but I could have asked! At least then He would have known that I wasn’t sure I could handle both. Instead, I figured I’d just quit like us quitters do.

And I’m okay. Really. Yesterday I could have sat down and smoked a whole friggin’ pack in five minutes. But I’m okay.

Five days under my belt and counting. I don’t see it as an accomplishment for me, though, so much as an accomplishment for Him. All I have to do is obey. That part’s usually easy. The hard part is dealing with how bitchy and emotional I am. And He’s handling it like a champ.   Read more…

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