Archive for February, 2009

More than Meets the Eye

February 26th, 2009 Comments off

So last night we watched the Transformers movie for the first time ever. We’ve had it since it came out on DVD and just never watched it. Despite the fact that everyone said it was really good, we were skeptical. Movies made after cartoons aren’t always all that good and I never really liked Transformers as a kid. Well… the cartoon. I wanted the toys but my parents said they were boys toys and wouldn’t let me have any.

It was good. I loved it. And Bumblebee was adorable.

But why is it that every time I watch a good movie right before bed I start dreaming about it? This morning, while dreaming of Transformers, I had a dream that Megatron was trying to destroy the world. They had me locked up in this metal puzzle thing with all these bars running between my spread legs. And the only way to save the world was for Optimus Prime to pry the bars from between my legs and for Master to have sex with me.

*blink* What? That doesn’t even make sense!

But I woke to a hand between my legs and behind my eyelids were those bars. The hand stroked and stroked and it was so amazingly scrumptious that my hips rocked up to meet it every time. And then suddenly there was this big hunk of man forcing himself between my barely open legs and grunting huskily “Spread ’em, slut.”

And it was good. I thought I was too tired to cum (Sometimes I just can’t in the morning. I’m weird.) but had no problem. And I got a blog out of the deal!

Don’t worry, Kaya. I’m still lookin’ for those eight friends 😛

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BDSM and Feminism

February 24th, 2009 3 comments

Kaya posted a blog about a raging feminazi she found on the web. The woman truly believes that women involved in BDSM are destroying the very fiber of feminism.

She says that feminism isn’t about equality at all. It’s about freeing women from oppression. Whether they like it or not. And that no woman should be allowed to indulge in any sort of behavior in which she is dominated.

There’s more to her message but I haven’t had the will to read. I’ll muddle through it eventually. But the thought of someone being that closed-minded simultaneously makes me sad and angry. As well as baffles me beyond belief. How can anyone in one breath say that women shouldn’t be oppressed and then oppress them by refusing them what they desire? *sigh*

Anyway, I’ve begun my own bit of research. I’m searching the web for feminist organizations and asking them for their stance. The following is the email I’m sending:

Hi there. Recently there have been a number of debates around the globe about BDSM ( and feminism. People are saying things like “BDSM knocks the feminist movement back 30 years!” and “Feminism isn’t about a woman having the choice to live how she wants. It’s about freeing her from oppression.”

I’m wondering… Where does your organization stand on a woman’s right to choose how to live? Is feminism really only about freeing women from oppression? Or is it about giving us a choice? And do you feel those of us who prefer to live in a patriarchal household (And some of us didn’t live in a patriarchal household growing up, so it’s not always learned behavior.) are… wrong somehow?

Thank you for your time 🙂

Stay tuned for their responses.

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Punches + Slaps = Singing??

February 22nd, 2009 Comments off

What’s up with that? I was literally knocked back into my place yesterday. This morning I’m singing (albeit badly what with the sore throat – if it’s not my stomach it’s a head cold.) and dancing around. All smiles and sunshine.

And that’s *after* finding out I cost myself a haircut and auburn dye.

What is it about being knocked in my place that makes me so friggin’ happy?

Bubbles and sunshine! Really!!!! *bouncie*

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Asking vs. Ordering

February 19th, 2009 Comments off

I’m super touchy this morning. Not with Master. But with everyone else.

Seeing insults in everything they say. Taking things that probably aren’t meant to be as personal attacks. Dunno why. Maybe just cause I’m not a morning person.

I mean, it makes no sense. I woke to some dude feeling me up and then raping me. Not really sure how He got past the locks on both doors. He certainly didn’t climb through the window. And He was damn good! He always is.

I keep saying on FetLife I’m gonna start wearing a sign. There should be a PMS flag on places like that. Even if you’re just pissy, you could click a lil button and let everyone know you’re spouting off for no real reason.

So Master shocked me a while back and I never really talked about it cause it was just that bizarre.

The first time I played with my cunt for Him I was given free rein. Every time I asked Him what He wanted me to do, He said “Surprise me.” And boy did I. I’d told Him how much I liked to hurt myself before but He’d never given me the opportunity to prove it to Him and I’d never asked for it. I was embarrassed, to say the least.

True to His word, He didn’t once order me to do anything He wanted to see that night. I’m sure there were things He wanted to see but He had given me free rein and didn’t go back on it.

When He was ready to cum, I was considering clamping my clit one last time. It hurt so bad I put it on and immediately took it off again. I’m guessing He realized I was done. I had reached my limit. I was tired and sore and just ready to cum and be done with it.

He turned toward me, hand firmly gripping His rock hard cock, and said “Please? One more time? For me? Please, just one more time.”

I was so shocked I didn’t even think before grabbing my clit between two fingers and closing the clamp around it. I cried out. I whimpered. My hips rocked and my hand kept closing around the clamp with the intention of taking it off.

“Not yet!” He cried out as I slowly peeled the clamp from my skin. “Wait. Just a minute more. Please?”

I stared at Him in utter disbelief. Why was He asking? Why wasn’t He just ordering me to? But I let go and cried out as the pain shot through my cunt.

He stood over me working frantically to cover me in cum. And as the first stream shot across my face and tits, He yelled, “Now!”

I screwed up my courage and opened the clamp as quickly as possible. There were no tears. Just my legs slamming together and a moan I’m sure was heard by the neighbors. And when He was finished, He sent me to clean up before taking me in the bedroom and fucking me. Then He made me rub one off myself.

Pain! God was it painful. But holy shit did I cum. And then I stared at this man who is usually so dominant, so controlling He can’t be bothered to ask for something.

I don’t know what would have happened had I refused. The thought didn’t even cross my mind. I assumed, since He was asking instead of ordering, that I had a choice in the matter. Whether or not I did, I don’t know. And I’ll probably never know. Because I can almost guarantee I’ll react with the same shock if He ever does it again. And the shock will be enough to force my hand, just as it was that night.

It was just so… bizarre.

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Getting to Know You

February 18th, 2009 Comments off

Stolen from Kaya

Answer in comments, please, so I can see them and respond 🙂

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of blogging?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Favorite fictional character of all time?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
27. What’s your favorite hangout?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

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Brain Beats

February 17th, 2009 Comments off

WritingAssignmentIconWhat if you could decide exactly what mood you were going to be in and when? If you could fine tune your brainwaves so you could concentrate better at work or relax more on your day off? With brainwave synchronization, you can. But how does it work?

Neurons, or brain cells, send signals causing electrical activity to different parts of the brain. This electrical activity is what researchers have named brainwaves. Different waves are associated with different mental states and can be stimulated to change a person’s state of mind. Brainwave entrainment is the practice of changing one’s brainwave pattern to a specific frequency by stimulus with the corresponding frequency to adjust mood and concentration levels. This article will discuss and explore the history of brainwave entrainment and the different techniques.

In 1839 a man named Heinrich Wilhelm Dove noticed that if you play a different tone that blends naturally in each ear it creates a beat that is not actually there. Dove called these perceived beats “Binaural Beats”. When he discovered the beats, they were considered an oddity of the brain and nothing more. Research continued on the potential to use binaural beats as a diagnostic tool for finding auditory and general neurological problems but, because the brainwave wasn’t discovered yet, no one originally considered a side effect of these beats being mood and concentration enhancement.

Hans Berger discovered Alpha brainwaves in 1929 and researchers found the strength of brainwaves could be driven beyond normal frequency using flickering lights. This process is called “Photic Driving”. Less than twenty years later, in 1942, Dempsey and Morrison discovered that repetitive physical stimulation could also affect the brainwaves while in 1959 Dr. Chatrian noticed auditory entrainment in response to fifteen clicks per second administered to the subject.

In the 60s, brainwave synchronization became a tool rather than a strange phenomenon of the brain and in 1973 Dr. Gerald Oster wrote an article for Scientific American called “Auditory Beats in the Brain”. In his paper, Dr. Oster discussed the differences between binaural and monaural beats. He noticed that monaural beats got extremely strong cortical responses (electrical activity in the brain that is responsible for synchronization) though binaural beats produced very little neural response. In conclusion, Dr. Oster stated that binaural beats could be useful in diagnosing neurological disorders while monaural beats would be useful in entrainment of the brainwaves. Read more…