Sometimes I find myself taking things others say rather personally. Even when I realize that a) they probably don’t even know who I am and b) I’m just a slave, not their slave and don’t even rate in the grand scheme of things in their mind. I’m told it’s normal when someone attacks your way of life or your beliefs to feel like you’re being attacked on a personal level. That doesn’t change the icky feeling it brings when I know I have no real reason to feel that way.

I read something on a board about a slave being too secure hindering her ability to serve. That if she knows that she will never be released due to misbehavior or the master’s displeasure or whatever then she is the one with control… not the master. And immediately, I had a million things to say in response. All of them explaining why I disagree. All of them defending a slave’s “right” to security. I chose to bring it here out of fear of saying the wrong thing and landing my ass in a whole heap of trouble. I’m good at that!

Because Master tells me frequently that I’m stuck. That He won’t release me. And that I will behave or I will be one incredibly unhappy camper. While He prefers the former, the sadist in Him would enjoy the latter as well. Read more…