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Random (but connected) Rambling

April 25th, 2008 No comments

Had a shit day at work and I’m utterly burnt out. “Eight more hours and then I have five days off.” is the mantra playing over and over in my head but, after 94 hours with only one day off, five days seems like too small a prize. I know one thing for sure. Minimum wage employees should not be made to miss their scheduled lunch to chase around inspectors while the administrator sits on her ass in the office. ::nods emphatically:: Master’s threatened to make me quit twice today. I’ve seriously considered begging Him to.

This, too, shall pass.

The days are slipping by like wildfire. I can’t believe it’s already the end of April.

I don’t really have much to talk about today. I’ve been slacking in my fodder gathering. I suppose I could talk about the beating I got the other day. I always feel like there really isn’t much to tell or I don’t tell the story well enough or something lol

I didn’t take a single minute of it with grace. I was crying while I was putting the suspension cuffs on. I cried while He hooked the clips to the rings over the closet door. I cried when He stuffed the gag (not the burning one, though!) in my mouth. You’d think I didn’t like these things.

He started with the kangaroo flogger which is usually my favorite but I was already so convinced it was going to be way worse than I could handle that I had completely psyched myself out. I just wasn’t in a good place mentally or emotionally by that point.

He switched twice. I think once was to the heavier flogger that He made Himself and then to the knotty cat. Oddly enough, at first I was almost enjoying the knotty cat (I don’t usually. I’m all about thump and that thing stings like a motherfucker.). I had even almost pulled myself out of my funk (I typed fuck at first.), which is next to impossible when my emotional state is already that far gone. Till He changed His technique! And then I was right back where I started.

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