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New Goal?

December 29th, 2007

Another week, another goal. Except not really. Master decided to stick with the response goal. The last couple of days He’s had to remind me more than once. I hope this week He doesn’t remind me… or if He does, He still beats me for it.

As much as I hate to admit it, I’m enjoying having something specific to focus on. It’s easier than saying “I need to work on this.” and “I need to work on that.” and having no sense of what’s a priority for Master. And I’m enjoying having repercussions when I screw up.

And oddly enough, Master was right (He usually is). My mouth has been running a lot less since He started beating me nightly. That’s not to say I’m perfect at it. But the threat of getting more than five with the cane has been enough to make it stop almost before it starts. That’s a positive thing, I think.

So, the moral of the story is, as much as I dread the way it feels to be beaten every night, as much as it hurts to know I really, at least currently, need to be beaten every night, it has definitely had a positive affect on my attitude, which can only lead to a positive effect on my growth as a slave.

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