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Spoil Master Day

December 18th, 2007 No comments

I’ve been in a pretty big slump emotionally the past week or so. At least part of it is the dreary winter months of upstate New York. I was diagnosed with SAD ([[Seasonal Affective Disorder]]) when I was twenty-two (Who doesn’t have SAD these days?) and was told that I’ve always had it, it’s just become more pronounced since I’ve been up here. The only reason I can think of for that is in the south, while it’s chilly and the sun still goes down earlier, there are less gray skies in the winter. Or at least there was when I lived there.

In any case, between work sucking me (and Master) dry and winter depression, Master’s been pretty neglected. So, in the spirit of not letting SAD (or work) control me, today has been deemed “Spoil Master Day”.

I woke up and laid in bed for about thirty minutes with my eyes closed and my hands laying in the most uncomfortable position (but the only one that would keep them from aching and/or going to sleep) trying to convince myself that sleep is a good thing. When willing myself to sleep wasn’t working, I waited patiently for Master to mumble something in one of His brief waking moments so I could mention my plight.

“Mmmm, I love the baby more than the baby loves me.”

“Nope. Daddy, I can’t sleep anymore.”

“Why not?”

“I don’t know. I’m not tired.” And then He was snoring again. So I laid there for another minute or two, then gave up on sleep.

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