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My Crazy Life

November 17th, 2007

Things have been a little crazy around here lately. They’re winding down, finally, though. Today’s tentative plans are to deposit my check, get a few things we need for the new business and begin making prototypes and/or samples to be given out. We’ll see where the day ends up ::grin::

I made a complete idiot of myself Wednesday night and Thursday morning. I let myself get carried away by emotion. I allowed my stubborn nature to get in the way of my slavery. And when Master found Himself forced to ask if I still wanted to be His wife and slave I responded by saying I did not want to be a slave anymore.

The more I think about it, the more I wonder if it would ever truly be possible for me to just stop being a slave. Granted, I’m not perfect at it. But well before I begged for Master’s collar, I was asking before I did anything. I mean anything. I asked to go to the bathroom. I asked to go over to my friend’s house. I asked to get something to eat, drink, do… Everything. And when His grip starts to loosen on my collar I start to freak out.

I don’t know. What I do know is that I’m glad He said, “Tough.” I would have felt very silly indeed a few hours later when all was well and I had to ask to return to my place in His life.

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