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Aiding and Abetting

September 27th, 2007 Comments off

I’ve been warring with myself about posting this and I’ve decided it doesn’t really matter. That might sound harsh to the person this is about, but it’s true and I’d rather be honest.

I was messaged a while back by a slave who is required to get permission from her owner before speaking to anyone – dominant, submissive, vanilla – online. I don’t know much about their situation. I’ve been overly cautious in speaking with her. She made clear to me that her owner doesn’t know she talks to me.

This puts me in an odd position. First, it makes me feel completely out of line for talking to her. In talking to her, I’m going against her owner’s rules for her and I feel like that means I’m going against my owner’s rules for me. I’m aiding and abetting defiance of another man. I’m not allowed to defy any men. Well, unless they want me to do something that is against Master’s rules.

Next, it makes me feel… unworthy I guess. She wants to talk to me, but not bad enough to ask permission. There could be any number of reasons for this. He doesn’t like me. He’s trying to cut her off from the rest of the world. She already knows the answer will be no for whatever reason. She’s looking for a small way to defy him. Or, while she wants to talk to me, she doesn’t want anyone to know. That’s about the extent of the reasons I can come up with right now. One cup of coffee just doesn’t get me going like it used to. Read more…

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