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July 31st, 2007

Iâ??m falling into this rut where I feel like having to work
is seriously screwing with my relationship and I really donâ??t like it. Iâ??m at
work more than Iâ??m home and itâ??s rather depressing. At the same time, I fear
what life would be like if I were home all the time. Only because sometimes Iâ??m
not sure Iâ??m ready for the intensity.


Last night before we went to bed I thought of an awesome
blog topic. And then, as all awesome blog topics I donâ??t write down, it flitted
out of my head. I thought, as I was journaling, I should write this down.
Except I didnâ??t. Because I thought I would remember. And so here I sit staring
at a mostly blank page going through all the various websites I read and/or
post to hoping Iâ??m suddenly reminded of this awesome idea. In the meantimeâ?¦

Sadly, I had another idea before I got in the shower and
forgot that one too.

Iâ??m falling into this rut where I feel like having to work
is seriously screwing with my relationship and I really donâ??t like it. Iâ??m at
work more than Iâ??m home and itâ??s rather depressing. At the same time, I fear
what life would be like if I were home all the time. Only because sometimes Iâ??m
not sure Iâ??m ready for the intensity.

Ughâ?¦ my head is totally not here. I swear some days I leave
my brain sleeping in bed when I crawl out. Iâ??m so fuzzy today. It doesnâ??t help
that Masterâ??s on call on Mondays and if He doesnâ??t answer His phone it wakes me
up. All part and parcel of the whole slave gig, I suppose. But seriously, I
need a nap.

I canâ??t wake up. Iâ??ll take another crack at this tonight
when I get home.

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