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Emotional Roller Coaster

July 3rd, 2007

Today's been one fuck of a day. I feel like I'm falling apart. Which means my period's coming. I hate the emotional roller coaster it puts me on. I can't get my head on straight to save my life until it starts. Then I'm fine. And, naturally, I think everyone else should be too! Right? Right. (Kidding.)

Today's been one fuck of a day. I feel like I'm falling apart. Which
means my period's coming. I hate the emotional roller coaster it puts
me on. I can't get my head on straight to save my life until it starts.
Then I'm fine. And, naturally, I think everyone else should be too!
Right? Right. (Kidding.)


Yesterday was nice. Well, when I wasn't working. Master took me out to lunch and dinner and we went shopping. Well, sort of. We went to Spencers to get incense and a chocolate store (not Lindt, though almost as good!) and got chocolate. He even took me for ice cream. I had mango whip. Damn it was good.


So naturally, I have to fall apart today. And when I do, I can't just fall apart internally and externally pretend that nothing's going on. Nooooo. I have to freak the fuck out on everyone.


It's damn embarrassing to go to work and burst into tears when someone asks you what's for snack. It's eye-opening to watch a resident who normally comes down just to talk to you tip toe around you. But what's worse is to stand in the doorway of the office and listen to Master tell me all the things I'm doing wrong and not have one word of defense for myself.


I need to work on separating work and home. To leave work at work and home at home and not let either roll over into the other for any reason. Some people, like my mother, can do this effortlessly. Me? I can sometimes. But other times, when I'm really frustrated, I can't. That needs to change.

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