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A Girlfriend?

June 7th, 2007 Comments off

There was a girl a while back who lived with me.  She was probably one of the best friends a person could have. So naturally, I pushed her away.  I told her I could never love her as more than a friend.  That my interest in her didn’t expand beyond a very close confidant.

I’m finding myself more and more wishing we had a girlfriend.  And last night and part of this morning I found myself thinking specifically of her.

Master met her once or twice.  He didn’t really talk to her much.  All He really knows about her is what I’ve told Him.  And still, I thought of searching for her.  Nothing too dramatic.  Maybe just a search online for the places I remember she lived and perhaps a call or two.  I suppose I could always drop in on her aunt in Vermont as soon as we have a legal/fully working vehicle.  (That would give us an excuse to pop into the cute little diner Master and I love so much,  provided it’s still there.)

Maybe this is all too creepy? I dunno.  I do know I miss my friend and I realized I can love her as more than a friend.  Even with all her little quirks and annoyances.  Maybe because of them.

One of the last nights I remember spending with her before the ex came back and ruined everything, she and I were sitting on the back porch talking.  She begged me to let her kiss me and I refused.  She promised that when I kissed her I’d realize how much I loved her.  Maybe she was right.  Who knows?

Hindsight, you know? We need a girlfriend!

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