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Role In Illness

June 6th, 2007

Thankfully, for me, Master has managed to maintain His role throughout
this particular bout of illness. He almost always does. Even when
completely doped up on morphine He still manages to growl out, "You
better not forget your place, bitch." at some point.


Sometimes people have a difficult time remaining in their roles in
trying times. Not only in Master/slave relationships but in all walks
of life. Children forget parents are in charge, the boss loses sight of
his place in the hierarchy, teachers lose interest in keeping students
in line. It's normal to want to back away from something so difficult
as being in charge or being subordinative when you can't even make your
body follow your will.


It's important for people to either regain their composure and take control of the situation at hand, regaining their role in the relationship. This goes for Master/slave relationships as well.


Thankfully, for me, Master has managed to maintain His role throughout this particular bout of illness. He almost always does. Even when completely doped up on morphine He still manages to growl out, "You better not forget your place, bitch." at some point.


And I try hard not to take advantage. It's not always easy. Especially when He's grumpy because He's sick and it feels like He's being grumpy "at" me instead of just being grumpy in general. And I know that if He wants to be grumpy "at" me that's His prerogative. It's still upsetting when I know I haven't done anything to deserve it.


I always walk on eggshells when He's sick. I try so hard not to upset Him more than He already is and most of the time I succeed. When I'm getting little to no sleep because of His illness or my worry it's hard to stay upbeat and cheerful in an attempt to keep His spirits up. I think I've done a fairly decent job of it this time around.

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