I've been contemplating this entry all day. Wanting to write
it. Needing to. And I've avoided it all day. I won't bore you with that. I'll
just get on with the entry and stop stalling.

I've ran head on into another fear and I think I was finally
able to come to terms with it. There's been this odd speculation that it's
impossible to be a slave and be part of a loving relationship at the same time.
While I knew that Master loves me, I couldn't help but be afraid that the more
I became a slave, the more I would only be a toy… oh this isn't how I want to
explain it. Let's see….

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