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Fantasy Fulfilled

June 27th, 2006 No comments

rayne"s had this really strange fantasy for… well, as long as she"s known Master had a webcam. she"s never really vocalized it because she thinks it"s so incredibly weird. Now… our readers might not find it strange at all. rayne only thinks it"s odd because she lives with her Master in real life.

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Begging For Use

June 21st, 2006 Comments off

Master made me beg last night.  Sometimes I wonder if there can be anything more erotic than kissing and licking a man while begging him to use you.  But I usually answer my own question because there is so much eroticism in being a slave.  So much that turns me on and drives me wild.

I’ve been on the other end before.  I had a boyfriend for a few years who would crawl all over me and beg me, tears in his eyes and his cock rock solid, to let him fuck me.  Promising that he would be quick (understatement of the year). Swearing he wouldn’t cum in me.  It’s one of the ways I realized I am not a Mistress.  He disgusted me.  While it was flattering that someone could want me that badly (later I realized that it was just sex he wanted that badly, it didn’t really matter with who), that a man could be that weak made me nauseous.

I understand that there are female dominants, male submissives and male slaves.  And there are probably some who read my site.  I won’t apologize for my opinion.  From where I stand, the female is the weaker sex.  It’s this way with nearly every other species of animal.  So why are we, animals when forced to live in our most primal state, so adamant about making women into men.  Making men submit and deny the dominance that is put upon them by nature.

“Well that’s just the Gorean in you talking, rayne.”  I would totally agree, except I’ve always felt this way.  For a little while, I tested the waters on the feminist side.  Women can do anything men can do. and Women deserve a fair shake. and Women should be treated equally. And all that’s true.  But the fact of the matter is men were built stronger.  They were built more rugged.  And they were just made to be the head of the pack.

And there I went on one of my tangents.  Back to the point.  So… Master made me beg last night.  I crawled into bed with Him once I was given permission and we kissed for a while and He teased me a lot.  And then He wouldn”t fuck me.  So I begged.  For a while.  Till finally He said “Sit on my cock, slut.”  And then I fucked.  God, did I fuck.  I’m still bow legged.

After we got cleaned up and I finally drifted off to sleep, Master pulled my legs apart with His own, pressed His fingers against my pussy lips and said “Kiss me, cunt.”  I lifted my lips to His and after a minute or two, He leaned His head back.

“Do you want it?”

“Yes, Master.”


And I did.

“Beg, slut.  Beg me to put my lips on yours.”

And I begged for another kiss.  Perhaps I’m not so proud after all.

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House Becomes Home

June 19th, 2006 Comments off

Our little apartment is finally becoming a home that we can be proud of.  We have nice things and tons of space.  We’re even slowly accumulating storage space (dressers, bookshelves, etc.) to do away with the clutter that was our house before we moved here.  Perhaps at some point I’ll retake the pictures I originally took of our home (because we have so much more in it now) and link them here.

It’s nice to have a place that I can happily call home for the rest of my life.  I enjoy the stability of moving because we wanted to and not because we had to.  Before I met Master, I was always moving because I could no longer afford to live where I was.

And I’m writing again.  Not just erotica, though I have been working on that.  I started a self-imposed exercise in which I hear or see something and try to write a couple of stories that have that specific thing in them somewhere. The current sound I’m working with is the clink of coffee cups.  It sounds boring or stupid, but I’m really enjoying it.  I’ve got two short pieces written already.

I got slapped last night for giving Master a dirty look.  Usually, my eyes tear up a bit, He says whatever He’s going to say and then it’s over with.  This time, however, I went into a bit of hysterics.  When I finally calmed down, I apologized, but I still felt like the worst person on Earth.  I plan to be more careful about my facial expressions from now on.

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Lovely Evening

June 16th, 2006 No comments

Last night was so much fun. Master bought a grill and cooked steak and corn on it. Then we watched Henry Rollins {sp} till late. Real tired and have no real idea what else to babble about today :/  Maybe she"ll write an entry tomorrow as well.
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Property Is Pussy

June 13th, 2006 Comments off

To say I irritated Master Melen yesterday might be putting it lightly. The progression of the way He refers to me when trying to get my attention usually goes from an over-exaggerated “slave”, to remind me quickly where I stand, to an angry “bitch” and even angrier “cunt”. Last night we skipped slave all together.

I’m not sure what happened exactly. I know how I pissed Him off. He would ask me questions and I’d pop off at the mouth. Sometimes just being whiney, but others being outright sarcastic. He tried to laugh it off at first, calling me a grouch, but I wouldn’t stop. And I’m not sure why I was being that way. The only thing I can think of is I was tired. But I know that’s no excuse.

By the time Master was able to go to bed, His job and His slave had Him so infuriated I’m surprised His look alone didn’t shear my head from my shoulders. I knelt no longer than two seconds before He growled “Turn off the lights and get on the bed. And I want to feel your lips.”

I climbed into bed beside Him and laid on my side. I slithered close to Him and began to lick and kiss and suckle His back and legs.

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The Grudge?

June 12th, 2006 No comments

Today while in the shower, rayne was contemplating some of the recent events of Master"s and her life. she realized she"s been holding a grudge that she has no real right having in the first place.

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