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Punishment

August 11th, 2005 Comments off

rayne was punished today for something she did last night. Yesterday started out as a pretty good day and then rayne blew it, as usual.

rayne was in the Kaverns (oh yeah… Master has found a new home. #Koroban_Kaverns on bondage.com. If you think about going there, please read the rules first and follow them once there) and was serving her little heart out and Master told her that she’s born to slavery. He said that His slave has learned so much in such a little time and is doing much better than most slaves when training to be Gorean. Master told rayne that He’s very proud of her.

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Now that I have more time…

August 6th, 2005 Comments off

… I’ll talk about last night and the reason for my third person speech. I’ll begin with the latter.

Master has decided that I need more structure in my life. I think I’ve mentioned that already, but can’t quite remember how in depth I got. Master thinks that Gor is a good direction to go in since there is so much ritual and tradition in Gor. He believes that it will teach me my place and help me stay in it. I agree but am a bit nervous. What if I let Him down? I couldn’t bear another failure.

While it would appear that I have mostly mastered third person speech (or slave speak) online, in person this has proven to be a more arduous task. I have trouble remembering that I, me, my, etc. is inappropriate. This is more force of habit than anything else but I don’t want to appear presumptuous either.

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And now the slave knows…

August 5th, 2005 Comments off

When I was young, I used to sneak into my mother’s room, and, corny though I thought they were, read bits and pieces of the romance novels mother kept. I used to see the phrase “And he crushed her lips with his.” or different variations of it and think “I would love to be kissed like that.” (for then I did not realize I was a slave) and pine away for the man that would one day take me and show me what I was. I have met that man. And I am pleased to say that I married Him.

I love You, Master.

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Ideals

August 3rd, 2005 Comments off

I’ve been reading essays on the website Gor on Earth and finding that I agree with a lot of the things they say they believe.

I know that not all Goreans feel the same way about the same subjects, but something that makes sense to me is the “a slave is a slave no matter who owns them” idea.

Maybe that’s because Master has mentioned it more than once. “You said you want to be a slave. My slave. Forever. If for some reason, I decide that you do not deserve to serve me anymore and give you away or sell you, you are still a slave. You still must serve as a slave.”

Funny. I never pictured Him as a Gorean Master. How wrong we both were, it would seem.

This may turn out to be a running entry for the day. We’ll see when we get home.

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New Approach

August 1st, 2005 Comments off

Ugh… I started this and then somehow managed to accidentally erase it. So this is my second attempt at “New Approach”.

I’ve decided (at Master’s suggestion) that it’s time for a new
approach to my blog. It has been brought to my attention that I haven”t
been using my blog for what it was given to me for. I should be using
it to discuss my growth as a slave and not a complaints forum. He’s
right, as He usually is.

And so, the primary focus is going to be put back on my training and growth as a slave. I will try to exclude any outside influences, though I’m sure I will still add my
opinions and thoughts on things I’ve read, experienced, etc. Since I’ve
been doing better at keeping up with my blog, I may include things I’ve
done wrong, as originally intended, and the punishments I receive to go
along with them. Read more…

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