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July 13th, 2004

Who says there’s no such thing? I’m there as we speak!

Master has been working almost non-stop for the past week. He’s had to migrate servers and essentially work through the night just about every night (including the weekend). When He does this, He usually sends me to bed as I cannot function on as little sleep as He can and I tend to be rather grumpy.

Last night was no different. I got sleepy and I asked Him if He wanted me to get ready for bed. He sent me off to get ready and then came into the bedroom all pouty. He asked if I thought I’d be able to fall asleep on the floor in the computer room because He wanted me near Him. I melted.

So I made myself a little palette on the floor behind His chair and I got my pillows and my teddy bear and I curled up behind Him and fell asleep. Just as I was starting to doze off I felt Him run His fingers over my hair and the back of His hand softly slid across my cheek a few times. When I was sure He had turned around, I let a few tears of happiness slip passed my eyelashes and then slipped slowly into dream land.

He finally brought me to bed around 5am and it was all the same sweetness. Gentle kisses on my shoulder blades when I turned to face the wall, sweet little caresses and whispers of love and happiness.

Not a day in my life could I ever question His love for me. Not a day in my life could I ever question my love for Him. And not a day in my life will I ever have to wonder “Was this the right thing? This relationship, this lifestyle, this love… is it right?”

The answer to that question is, without a doubt, yes. Yes this is everything I’ve ever dreamed and more. This is exactly what I want. What I’ve always wanted. And if someone has to ask “How on Earth could someone live that way?” they don”t have a clue what love is. They missed the boat when it came to desire. And they’ve never dreamed a dream a day in their life. And I feel pity for them. Because heaven is beautiful.

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